The hardest thing I've ever had to do.... ever

[jim currie]

Don i know this is probably the hardest time in your life  but you sound like your dealing with it as well as you can some times  its easer to deal with the physical death of a loved one verses the living death that faces us in these times , science has prolonged the body longer but what can be done for the mind is lagging behind in keeping up with what can be done for the body ..
not to sound preaching but some times turning to prayer can help.
Jim